Sad

I get so sad. Where my thoughts manifest into something ugly and I can't shake it. I feel so very alone. I hate being alone. He just lets the tears fall and says I'm sorry. I'm over sorry. I want to be me again. I want to be my own person, to feel love. To matter. I'm being held hostage here. I came here for him. He doesn't see that. Help me. I'm drowning.